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Time Check : 3.23pm
02/06/2015
Ive got no idea whether ill be able to keep up with this or imma stop half way.
Anyways as of today. I got a little better. It feels different in life right now. There is so much i wana do and ive stopped doing in the name of love.
02/06/2015
Ive got no idea whether ill be able to keep up with this or imma stop half way.
Anyways as of today. I got a little better. It feels different in life right now. There is so much i wana do and ive stopped doing in the name of love.
To think back it feels that ive lost myself in this putting so much into another who eat all my strength. Even with so much to say i do not want this ii haven had the strength to face life knowing the choice i made in life was the worse choice i have ever made.
I have always stayed the way where everyone knows i make choices with tons of thinking. That when i had someone to share my life , everyone thought it will be the right one cuz its gonna take alot for me to even say a yes to be in love. Yet i got crushed time and again and failed to proove my choice was right. Fought a fuckin losing battle.
I no longer been myself.
But i know ill pass this phase. I had didi talkin me out of this.. all of what she said, About how i used to be when i was with S. For he took care of me well, Supported me, Knew me in and out even without me having to say a word. Leavin that aside i miss how i used to be when i wasnt with anyone.
I guess im on the way to myself. I will.
I have always stayed the way where everyone knows i make choices with tons of thinking. That when i had someone to share my life , everyone thought it will be the right one cuz its gonna take alot for me to even say a yes to be in love. Yet i got crushed time and again and failed to proove my choice was right. Fought a fuckin losing battle.
I no longer been myself.
But i know ill pass this phase. I had didi talkin me out of this.. all of what she said, About how i used to be when i was with S. For he took care of me well, Supported me, Knew me in and out even without me having to say a word. Leavin that aside i miss how i used to be when i wasnt with anyone.
I guess im on the way to myself. I will.
Having so many blessing as friends. Family i can say.
But having to know the future read of having someone to hit me down through friends in this upcoming year have made me really confused.who could it be. could i speak to anyone. what if it was her what if it was him.
I hate the whole overthinking process. Guess there are something i have to deal with it myself.
Meantime. ive got my aims back on track. Make big money in life. Keep mum happy,Get a car,Get my dream house. Study as much as i could take in this head. Ive always wanted to hold high level certs for god knows what reasons LOL.
alright im done for today.
But having to know the future read of having someone to hit me down through friends in this upcoming year have made me really confused.who could it be. could i speak to anyone. what if it was her what if it was him.
I hate the whole overthinking process. Guess there are something i have to deal with it myself.
Meantime. ive got my aims back on track. Make big money in life. Keep mum happy,Get a car,Get my dream house. Study as much as i could take in this head. Ive always wanted to hold high level certs for god knows what reasons LOL.
alright im done for today.
Yes me,
Princess
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